mess

too much messes.. things about florist..
i knew tis day would come..
but it's settled..
for god sake, im fucking holidaying,
and im messing it up myself.

oh, so perfect

five fucking ppl disapointed me today.. yay.. all r very close friends.. and they FUCKING disapoint me. oh that is the first time i actually do use capital letters.

lesson? dont trust anyone.

fucking pissed..

pissed as in fucking angry, not drunk.

too much ppl disappoint me today.. esp m
i have nothing much to say
i treat u as a good friend
more than a sister
but what the fuck do u think u r doing?

/end berserk

florist..

okay.. sorry i havent been updating my blog for a damn long time.. for the time in malaysia anyway..

i'll go thru roughly what i have done in malaysia..
-joined lampe berger paris, obviously to support one of my good friend
-met a lot of good friends, and old friends
-went to jay's visit to 1 utama, was the front 10-20 lines
-had a one night stand and fucking regretted it

and now.. a relationship with a florist, that is too fucked up to even imagine.. okay.. he has a boyfriend already. that's fine, if they are just normal boyfren-galfren types, they could break up and i'll be the new guy holding her hand. but, things are never simple, the world is never fair (i think im a fucking hypocrite when i type that). anyway, there's a lot of things going on wif her and her boyfren, and no she cannot break up wif her boyfren, cos her life kind of depended on him. i wont say much here cos it's her personal issue.

anyway, she loves me, i love her. and it makes me feel that i am seriously a fucking prick. stop seducing her, u dumbfuck.