the call

i called m last night, she was on her way home, still had 3-4 stations before reaching her place, and something i noted was what she said in the middle of our conversation..

"you know how much i really wanted to come over, after what you said to me last night."

i went "uh huh?"

"i really wanted to stop studying and come over.. do you know that?"

hmm, the feelings that went through me, speechless. maybe i felt appreciated, maybe it's a sign of some joy, something that sparks beautifully for me, maybe. i laughed. and told her how foolish she is, but what my heart wanted, is the opposite.

i want her to come over, i want to see her, i want to take care of her, i want to spend every seconds with her. but that's impossible.

impossible is nothing? nothing is impossible? those are full of shit.